raining somewhere else again, as it always seems to on nights like these
"have you ever thought about a world where everything is exactly the same...
except you don't exist?"
forgive the formatting-- thought about goner kid & ended up doing more artsy-fartsy (barely) formatting on today's post. don't know why they popped into our unrelated thoughts, but something like that makes you think.
"everything functions perfectly without you..."
please don't misinterpret the intent of this post-- this isn't self-demeaning, or anything suicidal! it just makes us think about how sure, there COULD be a world that exists without us, but if we disappeared right now, there would be a wormie-shaped hole in everyone's wormie-shaped hearts!
it's strange to remember we have an impact on people around us, as strange as that sounds, because most of the time we don't feel quite like a human person :(
"ha, ha... the thought terrifies me."
explaining this is hard :/ what we mean is that ohhhh nvm lost the train of thought it seems =_= all that to say that it's fucking crazy to know we have impacts on other peoples lives no matter how small!! butterfly effect shit you know.
thats probably what we were trying to say. dunno. didnt have a revelation today or anything, so nothing new to report.
it was my girlfriend's birthday today! love her very very much :) i still worry about calling her MY girlfriend-- she has DID, i have some similar (if not the same) shit going on-- who's dating who? i don't know. i oughta ask, i guess, but aghhh i have anxiety ok! i know she literalky wouldnt be mad at me likew At All im just always thinking ohhh wjat if its awkward ITS NEVER AWKWARD WITH US. YOU KNOW THAT!!!!!!
but ohhhhhh i love her a lot i really really really do!!! i love all my friends very dearly they will always have a place in my heart <3
"an umbrella...? but it's not raining."
dunno if i have anything much to add now ummmm... downloaded some of fhose elementary school about me sheets to fill out, might put em on here, IDK.
pet both my cats today :) if youre reading this and have any pets go say hi to them for me please!!!!! my kitties both say hello :D
"ha, ha...
you know, that does make me feel a little better about this.
thank you."
i'm really sleepy-- as i always seem to be :( augh-- so im done writing at least for now i think. saved a draft of this but i think googling the markiplier outro is a phone death curse now >:( but whatever i think i have it memorized probably.
thank you everybody so much for watching and as always ill see YOU in the next video. BUH-BYEEEEE (4 realz tho: thats all, folks! hasta the vista mother fucker!)
"please forget about me."
"please don't think about this anymore."